It must have looked like someone turned a spotlight on inside of my head when she answered the door. Teleported straight from my brain.

I've been so uneasy the past two days. I caved and hinted at the situation to P, but just as a vague reference to riding bikes together with J.

The song came so naturally. I mean, there's still fine-tuning that needs to be done, but melody never came so easily. I don't think I've ever been happier with my own creation. If there's anything positive that'll come out of this, it's that.

I honestly feel like I'm letting myself down. Like I'm using a drug I kicked years ago. That's how this feels.