I think the most confusing thing for me is just the fear that surfaced. Haven't felt fear in so long. I could and can reason my way out of it, but my phone buzzing still gets the adrenaline surging through my body. I wondered if she knew where I was. I wondered what kind of scene she was capable of making.

For now I feel safe, and I don't think I was that important to turn her into a liferuiner. Still, I have Misery-like visions of her waiting for me in a dark corner of my house, apartment, street. Far fetched, but not unthinkable. That's the scary part.