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2011-10-10 - 2:01 a.m.
Apartment hunting in NYC, I feel so defeated. I felt something when I was walking to my last appointment today. I knew that it was going to be the right place, but that it was also going to be lost arbitrarily. Not a pessimistic thought, just a premonition. I just felt the emptiness in the stomach, when what you want gets dangled in your face and ripped away. It did. The landlord said he would never rent to a musician. But it was nice to meet someone new. And the whole time I reminded myself what I say whenever I meet someone who seems amazing, that no one is everything you've ever wanted. I really could have fooled myself, though. She had a porch swing in her living room.
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