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goodbye
2012-02-09 - 3:13 a.m.

I said a lot of things tonight. She didn't say a lot. I learned everything I really needed to. I can start moving now.

She wanted to see me once more before she left. I asked her how far she'd moved on, no answer was still an answer, so I told her that I couldn't dance with her.

I was pathetic. Then I wasn't. I was direct and calm and aware.

I told her I had so much more to say. She said write it down in a letter. I thought for a second and didn't want to do that. So I said it all.

None of it mattered.

Then I thought of this.

Now I stay up until I can't keep my eyes open. So when my head hits the pillow

I am gone.

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