Touring Vancouver, Seattle, Portland. I don't want this to be the end, and I can't tell what voice inside of me is right. Ambivalence. Janet, a mom of a former student, told me that I'm ambivalent because of my youth, my inner artist, and my dad. I think I'm ambivalent because I want to play in a band and I want to have money. That seems like enough to divide a person.

She also said that I spend too much time alone, going through existential crises. The woman doesn't even know me, but she hit the nail on the head.